Moment of Peace

There were a multitude of emotions playing in my mind, each trying to suppress the other. I had a strange revelation, possibly because there is a certain limit to which the mind can accommodate conflicts. There I was, in total longing and wanting, just to make the other realize the extent of my love. I never consciously wanted anything in return but you reach a stage where the heart desires some comfort which can only come from the other. It makes you hungry and fills every thought in your mind. You question yourself - if you lacked in anything. But apart from superficial flaws, it has all been honest and noble. The intent had been clear because it is not everyday that you find love. And when you find it, you give all that you have. It is a stage in life when you learn to love the other more than anything else. You do not care to die for them, and it feels good because the entire process is a path to self discovery. Then, it hurts so badly, you become fearless, and death is no longer a terrifying preposition.

One morning you wake up and suddenly the sun is shining. It is subtle because the mind is still aware of the chill, but the heart feels warm. You rediscover yourself and the happiness which you have overlooked for a long time. There is no animosity although the scare of a relapse lurks at the back of your mind. You do what anyone would to indulge yourself. There is a smile on your face.

There is no love lost. The intensity remains the same. The perspective changes in a moment that inexplicably redefines feelings. It is like accepting death. There is a moment of eternal peace in the moment before dying.