Liar

~Short Story Excerpt~ 

Remember, one random evening you had asked me if I liked those soppy romantic movies and I said no?

…and then one late night you asked me whether it mattered if you were to sleep with a random girl. I had replied shrugging my shoulder, “No, why would it?”

Then one afternoon you told me would I be ok if you had gone and I assured you that I would be totally fine.

I remember when you asked if I was just kidding after I said, “I think we would make each other very happy!” and I convinced you I was.

Two months down the line, you asked me out of the blue if I were doing ok without you around and I said YES with a flashing smile.

I remember one night, very sadly you had said, “I will try to forget you”. I replied “me too”

Well, you know what … I lied.

Yeah, I did. And apparently, I am very good at it.

Thrills & Spills

There's one thing we know for sure: Life—it ain’t over ‘til it's over. Until that time we buckle ourselves in the roller coaster and hang on to our hats. It's interesting, this undulating journey. It goes slowly in spots, fast in others, loiters expectantly some of the time, then dashes hell-bent around curves the next. There are happy, fun places along the way and stomach-dropping moments when gravity and equilibrium fail. We go topsy-turvy with giddiness and joy on some of the very best days of our lives, and we go topsy-turvy with fear and utter discombobulating on the worst.

Coming out of the drops and spins is when I'm most reflective, whether they be the good kind or the bad. Those are the times when I manage to solve another huge chunk of life's puzzle, and I 'get' it. One of my favorite places in life has been in the afterglow of one of my protracted aha-phenomenon phases. I'm known for wearing blinders, but I've found that in the larger picture they serve a good purpose: They've kept me focused and protected when the larger view would have been too much for me to handle. The problem with blinders though, is that we become dependent on the narrower view, making it frightening and difficult to move into the larger reality. Growing pains are hard, but cutting apron strings, severing the last thread of a loose tooth, and finding the courage to step out of one phase of life into another have, with few exceptions, proven to be more painful in the contemplation than in the completion. I try to remember this. Often I forget and then I have to wrap up my courage around me tightly, and resolutely take a leap of faith. Voila! There I am, living in the reality, traveling smack in the middle of whatever it was I feared so much.

In this spring of renewal I am thankful for all my joyful moments and for the people who have brought me that joy. But I'm also thankful for the sad times, and for the unknown, unturned corners I've yet to face. With each new day I learn a little better how not to fear life but to celebrate it better. Every passing day enriches my life and gives it a grander texture. Each day teaches me just how vital I am. I think and I know! I sense and I feel! I love dearly and I laugh heartily. I am increasingly thankful every single unfolding day for those who were with me for the proverbial season, and for those who will stay close forever. I am supremely thankful for the springtime and for the tender, vulnerable shoots I find rising up in my spirit yet again.

I tend to those little promises of life with the gentlest kind of love, and protect them with every survival instinct I have honed. Then I stand back and let the sun and the rain nourish them, and perhaps soon I will enjoy the full fragrant bloom of these new heart-flowers. I don't want to fear if they are annuals or perennials - I simply want to stand in the midst of their beauty and be grateful.

Life Is Funny (8)

*Real incidents and Quotes from people who are a part of my life*

"You should never EVER drink under the influence of alcohol!"
-A random girl drunk and trying to lecture someone on the dangers of drunk driving

Kam: You have officially upgraded from being a nerd to a geek.
Rushtin: I was never a nerd.
Shaf: You were always a nerd
Ibrahim: But being a geek is not a bad thing. Nerd is bad, geek is not bad.
Rushtin: Do I get to be smart then? :-)


Chelsey: My aunt is so pro-bush that she won't tolerate it if anyone in our family says anything against him. I mean they seriously get into a fight.
Patti: You think that is bad? My Grandmother is from Texas.
Pam (to Patti): Well.... that is just unfortunate for you.
-feeling sorry for political families.


"I'm just not motivated enough to hate my life."
-Dan, on dead ends


During a discussion/lecture about polygamy in Anthropology class, professor tries to pursue us in thinking that polygamy could have many benefits but students not really agreeing.

Professor: Raaji, you have been quiet. What do you think about polygamy?
Raajii: *thinks*
Hmm… umm… Nope. I am NOT sharing my husband!

*Laughter from almost everyone*


Han woh dono chezein sath by sath hain... oh i mean side by side hain...
-Raaji, when east meets west :-)

You know the happy hour… when people go get drunk after work… I mean get drinks after work.
-Sultan, on the slip of the tongue

"Unless there is something you want me to know, you are in the wrong section.
-Julia, pointing to the "Maternity" sign in the Target Store

"Stop saying the Fuck Word!! Oh, I mean the "F" word..."
-sometimes you should know what NOT to say


Emily: oh shit!
Deb: Emily, why do u have to curse?
Emily: I didn’t curse. I just said something we all do every day.
-keeping it real.